I once went to a therapist who had this trademark gesture, where he’d tap the end of his nose twice (while crossing his eyes to follow his finger), which was his indication for bringing a wandering mind back to the task at hand, snapping out of a daydream, abandoning the tangent, etc.
I took the lesson to heart, I understand it’s imperative that I maintain focus, and I desire to do so, more than anything else in the world. You’d think sooner or later my attempts to discipline myself would coalesce into a fucking modus operandi that could even be mistaken for “disciplined”.
And somehow I still have a problem with it. At my job, I’m not as productive as I could be. In my relationship, I’m consistently letting her down. In my family, I’m seldom in touch as much as I should be. And on and on.
I was once sharp. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt (or been) sharp. Consequently, I feel dull.
Suggestions, recommendations, comments welcome.
You are still one of the sharpest people I know… I’m sure others see you as better than you feel. Trust them…